Mentally Unraveled

Standing still, mind racing, heart pounding. You look around to see where you can run but every path looks the same. Every path feels like it will end the same. You close your eyes, you scream hoping someone can hear you. Hoping that maybe someone can save you from yourself. Dropping to your knees, surrendering to your pain. You let yourself feel every aching emotion. Every emotion you have stored away, thinking if you pushed them deep enough, they wouldn’t ever surface. Asking yourself “How could I have let this happen?” “Was I that blinded by hope I didn’t see the damage that was being done?” Yet you stay kneeled knowing this is the path you chose. No one made you stay, everyone told you to walk away. But, as you kneel in the silence of the darkness feeling exhausted, you hope for something to happen but also that nothing changes. You are stuck in this limbo of what your life could be and what your so use to. You try to make a decision but you feel paralyzed. Your heart aches so much but your mind says you deserve a second chance. But, nothing happens, you can’t move, you can’t even imagine living a different life. The circumstances of changing your life based on what someone else caused is the root of all your thoughts. People come into your life, leading you to believe that it’s ok to step into the unknown. But, it’s never that easy, is it? Overwhelmed by it all, the time goes by so quickly and you just can’t think straight. You need everyone to just slow down, to keep quiet and let you think!!

You get up, you open your eyes and even though you don’t know where you’re going, you know you can’t keep standing still. You look around again and see a small path. A path you know oh too well. A path of solitude, where you start walking down and thinking that if you can’t make the decision, or you don’t know what’s the right thing to do RIGHT NOW, then you don’t need to. Those people in your life who can see right through you, know that you’re tired but you had made a choice based on all the right reasons. Now, if they truly love you, if they want the best for you, all they can do is stand in the midst and wait for you. But, if they can’t, then you love them for what they brought into your life. This is your time, the time to be with your thoughts, to sift through it all and figure out what you really want.

No one should ever make you feel like you’re in a hurry to move on from a situation or to quickly make a decision. For once, be selfish and think of YOURSELF, not what everyone else wants or needs, even if it hurts them. Take your time, be alone and fall in love with who you were, who you are and who you will become. Forgive yourself, forgive others and free YOURSELF from the prison of agony.

The paths that are meant to cross will always continue to cross no matter where you walk. So, when you’re ready just know what’s meant to be will be. It’s ok not to know. It’s ok to be alone.

YOU ARE WORTHY, YOU ARE ENOUGH AND YOU ARE LOVED!💋♥️🌹

“Once you embrace your value, talents, and strengths, it neutralizes when others think less of you.”~Rob Liano