Mentally Unraveled

Waking up every morning, hoping today will be different. But, this day is the same as every other day. You sit up and the emptiness overpowers you. You just sit there staring at the wall in front of you. There isn’t anything on your mind, you are just so numb. You are tired of crying, you are tired of feeling stuck. You couldn’t help who you fell in love with, who you gave yourself to, EVEN if it was the bad part of you too. But, you gave your heart to them and they damaged it. They grabbed it and stepped all over it, over and over again. You have stayed too long and been hurt too many times you can’t even see past it all. The anger boils up inside of you as your breath gets more shallow. You want to know the Why’s? The reasons behind all the pain they’ve caused.

The lies laid out so perfectly and flawlessly. You never knew how unworthy someone could make you feel until now. No matter how many times you try it won’t be the same. Out of anger you display yourself in words. Only to be in the light of humiliation, embarrassment and shame. You couldn’t see another way out but to SCREAM! SCREAM how much they hurt you, to let the world know!

No one can understand your pain unless they’ve lived it. Everyone thinks it’s easy to stop loving someone and walk away. It’s never that easy. Even if it’s a type of love that you have for a person you just care about.

You aren’t weak, stupid or pathetic. You did what you did without knowing the outcome. You loved without knowing one day they wouldn’t love you back anymore. Just know you aren’t alone.

One day the late nights won’t feel so lonely, the broken heart will start to heal and all of this pain will soon be a faded memory. Something you can learn from, where you can grown from.

So, even if today you woke up sad, confused, or simply numb. Know that it won’t always be this way. Take it day by day. We all have the strength to heal, to renew ourselves and to love once again.

YOU ARE WORTHY, YOU ARE LOVED AND YOU ARE IMPORTANT!♥️💋🌹

“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.”

~RUMI