Mentally Unraveled

Dear You,

As the clouds start to cover the blue sky becoming such a solemn gray, all I can think of is YOU. We may not be physically next to each other but my heart longs for you and it doesn’t even know you left. My mind, like clockwork, looks for your early morning calls and an “I love you.” My body seeks yours as if you were the only source of energy it ever had. I search for you when I have big news or even a joke we both could laugh about but you are nowhere near. Every step I take, every movie I watch or song I sing I am reminded of the “unbroken” bond we were suppose to have. You were a vital part of my days for so long that now I find myself lost trying to figure out a new way of life.

I don’t know how things escalated, I don’t know how we got here. I don’t know why things were so intense and so complicated. You taught me that I shouldn’t have expectations of you, so I no longer do. You showed me that I needed to let go of the version of you I fell in love with because it no longer exist. You made me a promise you couldn’t keep and I couldn’t keep waiting for you to see that I was still here. I need to let you go, I need to be free from you but I don’t want to. As much as I just want to be selfish and keep you here with me forever, I can’t. I wish things would of turned out differently even if that meant we were just friends, but you didn’t make that possible.

You taught me so many good things but you also equally hurt me. You have engraved my heart forever. You are the soul that is intertwined with mine and one day I hope you realize I loved you and will always love you. So, for now all I can say is until we meet again.

Sincerely, Me

YOU ARE LOVED, YOU ARE ENOUGH, YOU ARE WORTHY 🌹💗💋

“Cry. Forgive. Learn. Move on. Let your tears water the seeds of your future happiness.” ~Steve Maraboli